I think about you constantly. So many regrets, so many things left undone. Every time I see you there is always a spark in my heart. I miss you every day, i wish you were mine. I still don’t want anyone else, I don’t want it to be over. I don’t want to move on from the best thing in my life. I just hope. Hope one day you realize what we have, how real, how passionate and deep, how much we are meant to be. Right now we are doing our own things, but in time, I hope our paths cross again. It has been taking it’s toll on me to not talk, to not text… to never see you, with you right down the road. I come home from work taking the back roads, sometimes your car is there and I wish I was coming home to you, sometimes it’s not and I hope you are okay. I hope you think about me too, and smile like I do. I wish things were so different, I wish I could take some things back. You taught me a lot. You are so beautiful, I was so lucky. I miss saying I love you, because I do. I know you still love me, but I know you can’t get close. You are trying something new, and I don’t blame you. I just have one last sliver of hope, that if you find yourself missing me, missing us, you don’t hesitate on those feelings. I love you Jaspar, and I always will. I miss your company, and your friendship, I miss your love. I miss you, you will always be my lobster.